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kindmemory
05 June 2015 @ 10:39 am
Strong's Concordance
allos: other, another
Original Word: ἄλλος, η, ον
Part of Speech: Adjective
Transliteration: allos
Phonetic Spelling: (al'-los)
Short Definition: other, another, different
Definition: other, another (of more than two), different.
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243 állos (a primitive word) – another of the same kind; another of a similar type.

 
 
 
kindmemory
07 May 2015 @ 04:49 pm
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kindmemory
02 May 2015 @ 05:14 pm
If you had to choose one food to eat for the rest of your life, what would you choose? (Assume any chosen food has complete and balanced nutrition, even if nothing could be further from the truth.)
Pizza. This would make me sick of pizza in a short time I suppose. But getting all of the nutrients I need might make me satisfied with it forever.

An impossible question, of course.
 
 
 
kindmemory
17 April 2015 @ 03:55 pm
It's driving me crazy to be in this situation I seem to find myself in. I moved in with B. Temporarily and then started to withdraw. All it was at first was just her sugar/calorie enabling (Oh, you don't want a caramel sundae, the one I got you? Okay, I'll eat it.) and then the complaining about The Smell ( a chemical smell because the new varnish on the floors/cabinets cured superficially, but when the heat started over the winter, it brought out The Smell, and the polyurethane is still curing).

The Smell is her business to do something about, I am not going to call her landlady and explain the whole thing.

The enabling PISSED me off royally a few years ago when she did it, I was many pounds thinner, after simply being homeless with not much in the way of food. Now I have plenty of food. But then she was like, oh, Elizabeth eat those brownies I'm afraid they are going to get bugs if they get left here (NEVER did we get bugs at our Al-Anon meetings, everyone is a neat freak and we store stuff in sealable containers). And that started me just thinking about food again. Why do I do that? I am beginning to think it is indeed genetic. But still, I had worked hard to also walk everyday or every other day a couple miles and eat reasonably.

Her roommate got really heavy after she lived with her a while. She (roommate) finally said "oh I just keep going for those snacks at (our meeting's snack table), but it's better than starving myself". Not blaming someone else, but jeez, B. keeps pushing snacks.

And the smell, I finally said I am not going to have a conversation about the smell. She complains and complains and complains. And complains, every time she comes in. EVERY NIGHT. Immediately it starts.

I get so mad and it's stupid, like I let it happen but I do it every time, I wait till the next day and it's like "EFFING...". This reminds me of living with those other people, V, had a temper like whatever, it was no doubt from her past, the anger.  IT's driving me nuts and I don't know who to talk to.

Then again sometimes when I talk it out it goes away. I do wish I could think of something else to do than planning to say whatever hurts, whatever makes me sound like a jerk, just to get her to shut up.

This is like my mom, who taught me words are never wrong, just physical force. But she's wrong, I know that now.

I just don't know what the hell to do. Duh.

And I had a dream about venting, some kind of integration (personality), and venting.
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kindmemory
14 April 2015 @ 08:37 pm
Is there any specific significance behind your given name? If you were named after or in honor of someone, what made that person special? If you could choose any name for yourself, what would it be?
I was named for St. Elizabeth of Portugal originally, then was born on the feast day of St. Elizabeth of Hungary. Although a Google search says E. of Port. was born July 4, E. of Hungary on July 7--and I was born July 8.

I could never decide on a name, I just accept what I was given, though a Jehovah's Witness mailman used to call me Liz when he came up on the porch, so my family started to call me Liz.

My dad's father wanted me to be called Lizanne.
 
 
 
kindmemory
14 April 2015 @ 04:15 pm
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kindmemory
14 April 2015 @ 01:51 pm
I am complete in Him Who is the Head of all principality and power (Colossians 2:10).
 
 
 
kindmemory
13 April 2015 @ 04:18 pm
Do you ever talk out loud to yourself? What do you say? Why do you think you do this?
Yes, it helps me remember things, and sometimes to think them out. But it's usually brief. I read that intelligent people tend to talk to themselves, so that's a bit of a bonus to the other benefits of talking to myself.

Sometimes I just say what I'm looking for, scissors or glasses or whatever, when I have looked where I thought I put them, where they might be, and any other likely place and they are not in sight still.

If it's more complex, I tend to hit the old journal, my paper journal.
 
 
 
kindmemory
13 April 2015 @ 03:42 pm
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kindmemory
07 April 2015 @ 03:00 pm
I am staying at my friend B.'s house, been there for like a month. She is having issues, freaked out over something small and had to go stay w/ her sis upstate, having to take off work just that suddenly. Then she stayed with a friend or two a their houses. She just could not stand to be alone at night, just had to have someone in the house. Well, yours truly is perpetually unemployed.

So this is fun, I am depressed as usual, tv isn't working. I have one, don't have much in the way of electrical outlets and just haven't cared or have not felt WORTHY of having a tv--for years and years. So B. has one and ...it's okay. It's nice to have the weather, ...but I think I'd like to have more channels or better reception, it's just network, not cable.

And the food is better.
But there is a problem with some water-based urethane finish not curing, just putting out this nasty odor, that especially makes B. sick. But I had to go in the back room where it is strongest, just for a few seconds last night, and i had t cough and got a headache in a few minutes.
 
 
 
kindmemory
06 April 2015 @ 04:43 pm
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lisasimpsonfan said the above about libraries in response to a question at thequestionclub (about library use fees) and someone said if it were on a t-shirt they would buy it. I had to icon it.

This is a journal cover that I made for my paper journal at home. Larger behind the cut.

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kindmemory
27 March 2015 @ 02:10 pm
I went to a bible class last night, same as usual lately on Tuesdays. But there were just 2 of us. I talked about the couple who counseled me at the church I went to in 2009 after not going for a long time.

I am furious that they did not think of FASTING and PRAYING when it seemed obvious things did not work. But I didn't think of it either. Then again, it's their job. Also "GG" was lying about a lot of stuff, she was quite NOT friendly in general, and they got kicked out of church. Before that, they asked me for a testimonial, but it was because they were going to get kicked out because of GG. And because he was more devoted to his own ministry and wanted to promote himself, not the church. I think.

Now maybe I should go say, maybe you should think about this if


Today, 3-26-15:
I did go to Larry's funeral, LATE and I did not go to his service, what an opportunity missed. In the sense that I did not care enough about his friends, who did love him, but I decided I did not care for Larry. I really wanted to go, or really thought I wanted to.

I couldn't go to Jesus' birthday party And he got upset after he was all cheered up after I hugged him.

I am so disappointed that I didn't have courage and that I am nothing nothing nothing.
 
 
 
kindmemory
18 March 2015 @ 04:48 pm
Bleh  
I guess I have a stomach virus. There has been one going around, and I have this thing that seems to get triggered off by me taking Vitamin E. I have the same kind I've taken for years, though I did take a break from it when I ran out. I couldn't decide whether it was the yogurt or the vitamins.

I made a cover for my April journal, which I have not started yet. It's got a rabbit on it, which is something that sort of intimidates me. I feel seeing one means I am going to fast, like the tortoise and the hare.
 
 
 
kindmemory
09 March 2015 @ 05:01 pm
I'm lonely and I don't know what to do.
 
 
 
kindmemory
06 March 2015 @ 05:40 pm
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Some icons, maybe  should make an icon journal and get familiar with tables. But if I have to do this all at the library, as I currently am, I don't think I can do it. It seems to take way too long.
 
 
 
kindmemory
24 January 2015 @ 05:27 pm
I uploaded a letter my dad had written to me in 1981. I had done a sketch (or two0 of my aunt Joanne, his sister, on the back of it.

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That was from a photo of her just out of nursing school, I think she was an RN. Odd none of her kids went for the medical field. They look like they are taken from a different angle, but it's from the same photo.
 
 
 
kindmemory
16 January 2015 @ 12:20 am
If money wasn't an issue, would you go back to school to study something? If so, what would it be and why?
I think I would. There would have to be a lot of money for food, clothes, books and transportation(& whatever else) in addition to tuition, as I do not have a job right now.

This is a very general answer since I don't think, or haven't thought about it realistically in years.

Art and or writing would be it for me. I used to think art and psychology, & I did get a year and a half of college. I didn't know what the heck was doing back then, or I would not have quit.
 
 
 
kindmemory
16 December 2014 @ 12:07 pm
gifdanceparty.com Just funny. Boredbutton is fun.
 
 
 
kindmemory
12 December 2014 @ 02:51 pm
A little consideration, a little thought for others makes all the difference.
 
 
 
kindmemory
20 November 2014 @ 04:36 pm
There was this cool video last night of a guy who was asking are you a mentor, or do you have one, a mentor or mentee? He was a preacher who was a friend of several people at the church where I attended last night, fondly remembered. He was saying Jesus said, if I do not go--die and leave you apostles-- then the Comforter will not come (the Holy Spirit). This guy was saying you need to teach other people to do what you know how to do, this is your legacy.

He talked about his son and daughter, who were 29 and 30, who were now running his business. He had something in his life to teach someone else, and he left it with them.

As it happens, very shortly after this guy gave his speech, he died in a plane crash.

He stressed the importance of having this teaching and training of someone else, or many others. And he asked, as I said, what are you passing on?

For me it's my journals. That's about all I can think of, plus whatever else I can.
 
 
 
kindmemory
17 November 2014 @ 07:11 pm
I posted an article at embodiment about Harriet the Spy, this year is the 50th anniversary. I asked about inspirations and got some interesting replies.

I don't know if I will ever get to these, but Elizabeth Wurtzel's books were mentioned (I've never even read Prozac Nation, but it does sound interesting), Hannah and the Angels (sounds kind of young for me, but you never know--it was a childhood influence for someone), Amelia's Notebook---that looks good, age difference or no. Also Sylvia Plath and Anais Nin were mentioned.

There were some interesting ideas for journals mentioned there today also, sort of prompts and journal styles too.

embodiment is for journalers who write every day, which basically I do, unless I'm absolutely very sick or something terribly unusual comes up.

Elizabeth Wurtzel
Amelia's Notebook
Hannah and the Angels
Poppy Brite / Courtney Love
Sylvia Plath
Anais Nin
 
 
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kindmemory
13 November 2014 @ 04:47 pm
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kindmemory
10 November 2014 @ 04:02 pm
Sat. 11-8-14: have a bed, thanks to friend Linda who is always helpful to the max. I helped her drag the mattress & box springs in, then get table and chairs (from a garage sale) from her truck to Bridget's porch.

Oh yeah, got sheets too.

I am at the library, got four books which I a very glad about--a Stephen King that's  new to me, two new to me by  with John Grisham, and Jonathan Kellerman. I am not that familiar with JK but just need something to read. I finished The Hours by Michael Cunningham, it was very well written. Rather sad, at both ends. And I have The Oath, by Elie Wiesel. The whole bedbug thing and sleeping on the floor, and my room being all goofy for a year, just makes me disoriented. WEll, all of the weirld stuff in my life makes me feel disoriented.  (They are spraying again for bedbugs, or more likely doing another bomb, on Monday) .

The Stephen King one is a Richard Bachman novel, Roadwork.

Today: finished Roadwork, then Gone. Very cheery material. Not. I usually can't put Stephen King down, and sometimes that's a curse. This time it was a bit creepy for me.

We are having a bedbug bomb today, so I get to keep busy till at least 6:30 p.m., not a problem with a library available.

The bedbug shit. It's still hurting all the fuss over it. But I guess there is something worse.

Great link, the technique worked for someone at TQC who had a bad earache, could not tolerate ampicillin. I used 2 12 or 16 ounce bottles of hot tap water which finally knocked out a really bad eye/ear/nose/throat thing:
http://www.organicauthority.com/health/health/how-to-rapidly-relieve-an-earache-using-supplies-you-probably-already-have-in-your-home.html
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