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19 September 2016 @ 01:25 pm
Also, a question about the death of a child.  I did not note that when I was writing in journal about what I did ...Sat.?... online.

I guess I have to go, shopping with Carolyn today.
19 September 2016 @ 01:23 pm
I did not eat at Wendy's Sat. because I could hear Pastor Billy saying how, "you'll spend five, or twenty, bucks" at McDonald's but not give to the Kingdom.

I did eat @ Wendy's,  $2.87, on Sun, I just needed to  GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. I thought I was going to put my paper journal together, I have to glue the pages in at the end of the month, as I go along. I'm just really tired of it, have lost the patience for now. Maybe never do it.

I am going to get Atoma notebooks from now on I think, I do like the option to have one journal for each month, instead of starting one in July and then not wanting to waste paper, so start August with the last 20 pages; like that. It seems pricey. But I feel like that's just the way it is. I need to journal, for whatever reason.
17 September 2016 @ 05:36 pm
Arg. the questions I think of at home to look up at the library, sometimes I just cannot get myself to write them down!

I am just feeling useless. I feel like I shut out someone's feelings, their pain, this week because I could not stand the pain. And I feel guilty because I did it, but also I feel guilty because I might have missed a chance to grow. But I also think she needed to calm down.
16 September 2016 @ 05:58 pm
Just weird, when I type "livejournal" into the browser window, it comes out LIEJOURNAL. Not liking that. 40 bucks, don't know if I can afford such frippery. But I MADE IT. :D That's just a preview from skinit.com. For iphone 7 which ... ... ... expensive.
15 September 2016 @ 02:55 pm
It's weird, I can't find my notes on who is waiting for the Mahdi before starting the Caliphate, Sunni or Shia.

"Differences exist in the concept of the Mahdi between Shia Muslims and adherents of the Sunni tradition. For Sunnis, the Mahdi is the Muslims future leader who is yet to come. For most Shia Muslims, the Mahdi was born but disappeared and will remain hidden from humanity until he reappears to bring justice to the world, a doctrine known as the Occultation. For Twelver Shia, this "hidden Imam" is Muhammad al-Mahdi, the Twelfth Imam."

JD FARAG: "The last time the Feast of the Sacrifice fell on 9/11 was in 2001,( sighting of the  new moon)" 9/11 this year is on 9/11(2001). Islam is a counterfeit, this is a counterfeit of Rosh Hashanah. This feast is a counterfeit of the day Abraham took his son to be sacrificed. Honors A.'s willingness to sacrifice his son, but puts Ishmael in Isaac's place. The Quran does not specify which son, but Muslim tradition says it is Ishmael, the Arab son.

Genesis says God said "take your ONLY son Isaac". Mt Moriah, temple mount is the place of sacrifice.

I am in over my head with this, am I really capable.

I feel GUILTY, not trying hard enough. Right, not.
13 September 2016 @ 05:23 pm
[from yesterday, doi:I got seltzer water and Ezekiel cereal, someone recommended Ezekiel bread to me, though I haven't yet found it at Kroger. But I did see the cereal today. No sugar, just bean sprouts and seeds, no grain. I had it with frozen berries and almond milk. Yum. I am really liking almondmilk. I like the kind that is half almond, half coconut, just for the taste but it's hard to find.]

I woke up after a weird, kind of sick feeling dream, about my older brother and Rosie O'Donnell, a Barbie briefcase of faux tortoiseshell. I was just fascinated by this, then woke up and am now thinking, how weird it was, it ended up with Rosie O'Donnell and some plastic balls that you could embroider and make Xmas ornaments out of them, & she crocheted or knitted them so that you could play a game with them, really complicated and skilled but also as useless as any of the games people get addicted to, was played partly under the table ledge; so I'm guessing that some of this is about something under the table.

I had a dream about that before, someone I know lived on a certain street, & I dreamed I was walking on that street, the property of my highschool on the righthand, and this guy's street on the left, jutting adjacently from the street I was on. I dreamed my brother gave me a glass of brown rice, literally under a table I used to own, passed it to me.

There was a sick feeling to the dream, a tightness or pressure, and just murky, a forced feeling. Some of it was kind of personal, so maybe it has to do with that. I woke up angry at my mother, do not know why.

I had also had a dream previous to that, Stephen Spielberg and his kids and Kate Capshaw were in it, Kate looked surprisingly older, or rather that she had not taken care of herself well. Her cheeks were really sagging making less of her cheekbones. That reminded me of Goldie Hawn rather.

Listening to Pastor JD, just started. Gog, Magog, to attack Israel.
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09 September 2016 @ 05:50 pm
"...As one country, one people, under one God...". Donald Trump (Values Voter Summit?, today).

You can't always get what you want, but if you try some times, you get what you need.

NO Dakotah Pipeline...Collapse )
02 September 2016 @ 05:49 pm
I was trying to figure out what this meant, seeing "4" and Jayne B. A few months ago. 4 means PLACE, a new place like Jayne was going through, someone at her old apartment was bothering her so much she was just beside herself. We all prayed for her and she got a new apartment. Now I am getting one, Carolyn said she was sure and she knows the power of prayer, of God. Getting an apartment that is.

I keep seeing 'bunnies', myself. Prideful, rushing ahead, arrogant. Maybe even snap decision. I have to make a release with my mother, just tell her that I forgive her.

I finally did buy her a dish drainer, she has a folding wooden one from Pier 1--a couple decades old. She never noticed how bad it was getting, but refused to have a wood or wire one, or one affordable by me...till now. Ordered online a few days ago, should arrive by 7th.

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25 August 2016 @ 07:14 pm
Dream, cut for a reasonCollapse )

I have been meaning to look up the idea of lemon juice alkalyzing the blood/body? Didn't make sense when I heard it from others, but here is this blog, and I guess this is the reason:

  • "There is often misunderstanding of lemon’s pH outside the body versus inside the body.  Let’s get this straight and expound on 10 benefits of regularly taking lemon juice with warm water (note: NOT equal to lemonade!)
    Outside the body, lemon juice is acidic (pH is below 7).  This is a non-issue. Everyone knows this.  It’s a citrus fruit. Inside the body however, when lemon juice has been fully metabolized and its minerals are dissociated in the bloodstream, its effect is alkalizing and therefore raises the pH of body tissue (pH above 7 is alkaline).  Please notice the difference."

It goes on, but that's it in a nutshell, I guess.

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13 August 2016 @ 05:47 pm
08 August 2016 @ 07:27 pm
I am back from a mission weekend and I loved it. Some things did not go great, but I feel like I see things better in perspective. I loved getting out of the house and someplace different.

I hate that all my old problems are just there getting bad as fast as ever. I guess that's the way it goes. I just have not had time to let the constant application of the solution take effect, I think.

South Dakota is beautiful, we got  to Wounded Knee.
25 July 2016 @ 06:37 pm
This is one of my journal covers to be printed out, with the patch to go at the bottom if I do use it for the September journal. I usually picture it on a light cardstock with a linen texture, but so far that does not happen, just limited resources. Or I'm reluctant to spend the money, and the time to find the cardstock. Maybe some day.


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18 July 2016 @ 03:01 pm
AT first I thought he was being decisive and confident as a leader, when his social media post worked to help get the coup put down, now I'm thinking he sure is heavy-handed. I'm even hearing a suggestion that he may have been the one to promote the coup, so that he could cut down people in the aftermath, do things he couldn't do except in the face of a coup.

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16 July 2016 @ 02:53 pm
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16 July 2016 @ 02:08 pm
I had a really bad chest pain early Friday morning. Trying to figure out what it means, and whether anything would have shown up on any tests. Not that I go to doctors for any amount of money anymore. Not that anyone is going to pay me.

16 July 2016 @ 02:04 pm
a Ohhh-kay. I had a really really really bad chest pain \, extended and ...I just now realized it was after having Pastor Greg \\     "heal" me. Dude is annointed. Maybe it helped me to realize something is wrong. Actually the chest pains (Thurs. AM) were extended, but also right after getting rid of some demons.

I thought today was Sunday, and showered, went to church...yeah, now at the library. The bedbugs are driving me to distraction, it's all I can think about. I forgot my case with my earbuds, after taking a shower and reorganizing. I forgot change, again, to print some bookcovers. That can wait of course.

I had a really bad chest pain, I can tell people, so maybe I should.

11 July 2016 @ 06:18 pm
The Enemy tries to hide the evidence.
06 July 2016 @ 03:37 pm
JDF: Britain -- new superstate? Polish claim that Germany and France want to reform the EU into a uniform country. Book of Dan. & Rev. a further lining up of all the nations in all the world toward the end. Brexit is almost already old news.

Ramadan attacks in Arab world: Re Hallel ______(?), 13 yr old American Jew stabbed in her bed by Palestinian. No response from the White House. The WH blame Christians, guns and hate, but never Islam. US Attorney General Loretta Lynch: "Mateen's true motive may never be known." --Even though Mateen vocally expressed his support for the Islamic State. JDF: God Himself will send a powerful delusion (Paul to the Thessalonians). LL also said "we just need to be more loving to these people". The fact he attacked a gay nightclub on "hispanic night", they conclude means it's an attack on Conservative Christians. (George Bush, after 9-11, that Muslims and Christians worship the same God).

> Christians who bomb abortion clinics are not doing the same thing as Muslims who commit terror attacks. Muslims are obeying their scripture, but Christians do these acts in disobedience.

Turkey renewing ties with Israel.

Shepa and Dedan(Saudi Arabia, the young lions of Tarshish(possibly the British Lion, or young lions =  USA).

Independence Day: just the fourth of July, no meaning in that term. Independence Day is more meaningful. The US is declining with each passing year. "This is not the country my parents came to in 1963".

Amir Tsarfati needs travel visa renewed, pray for this.

Turkey making deals to get Israeli gas. The need to get along with Israel in order to have financial gain is here, not genuine  diplomacy, and, JD points out, the Arab world can claim they forced Israel to its knees.

"I come at a time when things are revving up." We are so close, Jesus is at the door. [When persecution of the Body and Spiritual revival of the Body are revving up, Jesus it there.]

Charle Garrett: UK will remain friends with Israel. Rome is the seat of apostasy of religion in Scripture.

Hezbollah has 100 sleeper cells in Latin America.

dairy additive prevents cancer (toward the middle of the video--from another youtube source, so do bananas).

Insane guidelines for British(?) schoolchildren to have gender, sex and romance knowledge.

John Haller: x  2 Thess. 9:  more from JH about delusion, I think the same passage JDF mentioned above. There will be a progression toward the Antichrist.

EU bans claim that water can prevent dehydration. LOL!!!! This was in one of the other PUs, Garrett's  I think.
29 June 2016 @ 10:25 am
Tues. June 28

JDF - June 26 Prophecy Update - Brexit may lead more quickly to the oncoming of the New World Order, Global Governance, the Antichrist.

It all boiled down to the immigration of Muslims into Europe.

"No Londonistan" - Most Muslims voted to stay in the EU, most Brits did not want Muslim immigrants to keep up the criminal behavior at their expense, especially.
Wed. June 29

Well, just one of those weird days. I got up and went grocery shopping at about 6:30 this a.m., bought a ton of groceries compared to my usual. Took the bus home, lay down for a bit, listened to music, came over to the library and was thinking gee, this is kind of heavy, my stuff in my tote bag. I had forgotten my case with my phone and earbuds in it, but had a package of turkey dogs, some sriracha mustard, 8 oz of mozarella cheese, and a can of fire roasted diced tomatoes. LOL!

The dogs will be okay, they are in air conditioning. This is legendarily the coldest library in the city. Or as far as I know. I remember sitting here in the seventies with my nose dripping, sniffling, hearing a classmate do the same. Years later, my lips and nails would turn blue.

I scanned in some stuff I had remembered to bring, so I'm glad about that.


24 June 2016 @ 05:51 pm
I found a bizarre article about men praying the rosary in San Juan--to defend the cathedral from vandalism--and they were attacked by topless feminists who spraypainted them. It was pretty nasty. And just weird. I think cathedrals and the rosary are a waste of time and the rosary prayer violates the command not to pray repetitivly, not to mention they are putting the "Queen of Heaven" before God. The Cathedral, I could go on and on.
17 June 2016 @ 05:00 pm
Another journal cover

Omar Mateen did, when he was in grade school. How weird must his parents be? His father said, despite all the disciplining Omar underwent, 31 instances of disciplining or intervetions because of the son's behavior. After 9-11 Omar said Osama Bin Laden was his uncle, made airplane noises while putting his arms out, made fun of the whole

The guy obviously had gay tendencies, he was a regular at clubs. He hated gay people though. I think he hated his father, that his father must have been a boy-freaking beggarer. JD Farag, who grew up in Egypt, says that's big in Arab culture.

A picture growing in my mind is men taking out their anger on their wives, mothers, whoever, by raping nephews, sons, whoever. It is just how people behave in bad circumstances, when things go on generation after generation. In the right circumstances it will happen in any culture. And in either sex, because in the US, half of the offenders in child molestation cases are women.

He apparently had no respect for women, made nasty comments about the anatomy of a woman he didn't know, in a gym.

What it feels like to me is that he hated himself for being gay, and that he thought he could purge himself of being gay by committing a  "sacred act" of mass murder, kill a lot of gay men so allah would accept him.

Oh, and he was a steroid abuser. Great, a man out to do his god a favor by purifying the world, forgot to purify himself.
16 June 2016 @ 05:49 pm
Oh freak me out. the first time I've ever ordered anything online that wasn't free. About 27 bucks. Vitamins, Pilgrims Pride. Wow. Then books, but need to figure out which ones I need.