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24 October 2016 @ 05:22 pm
"Everything we see happening in the world today is a spiritual war for the souls of men." "If you want to grow the Church, persecute the church."--JD Farag Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0UECFIWxjGc

I don't like to think of that, it gets people killed. And tortured. I hope not, though. Sometimes non-persecution leads to growing spiritually.

Hillary or Donald. Donald for me, because of the Republican platform. Also, maybe something will happen and Mike Pence will be president.

Political columnist Charles Krauthammer said this week that Hillary is a machine with no heart, unlike someone like Elizabeth Warren. I don't know Ms. Warren, but I agree about Hillary. It seems to me  stood by Bill Clinton because she felt her political opportunities woud be greater. She wanted to be Secretary of State and President too. I think it is more important to have a heart and a better agenda. I know politicians are known for changing their promises, but Hillary I don't trust.

The other thing that turns me off about her in Krauthammer's column is the corruption. She and Bill have accepted money from all kinds of people in return for political favors, too much.

Benghazi I know very little about, it's a long story what was going on in my life at during most of the Obama presidency, but I have not really familiarized myself with that yet, I have a lot of ground still to cover in knowing recent US politics.

By the way, it occurred to me strongly last week that if Trump gets elected, maybe something would happen to him, and then  Mike Pence (who would then be Vice-President) would take over. This idea just grabbed me.  I love it.

Or maybe he will be able to stabilize Trump and stabilize policies.
20 October 2016 @ 04:29 pm
Of course this is hard to prove, I am not finished with the viewings, want to save them for later. You never know, is all I can think.

Notes:  The man in the first video claims that Christ's blood is on the mercy seat of the ark of the covenant. It is from a human who has only one parent, the Y (male) chromosome.

There was an earthquake and a crack opened allowing the blood from his side, when the Roman soldier stabbed him with his lance, to drip into the chamber onto the mercy seat of the Ark.

This was in 1982, the Jews have kept it hidden and in waiting for the 3rd rebuilding of the Temple. This is due to happen soon. Chernobyl (Wormwood) has occurred, Israel is a nation again, the nations of the world have abandoned Israel. It is all happening. The One world church will be the Roman Catholic church, the antichrist is probably...

20 October 2016 @ 02:29 pm
19 October 2016 @ 03:24 pm
A few weeks ago I made some hot chili sesame oil, and I noticed that my stomach didn't feel so good. I had a weird ulcer, that at one point flared up like fire, just for a short time. I was in counciling with a couple from church and he prayed over me, and it went away. But it hurts, mildly, in the same spot, that it did before, when I eat chili oil. I guess the conventional faith healing wisdom is that I need to get to the root of whatever is making me hold it in.

I guess it's just keep praying! It is better, much, from its worst days.
18 October 2016 @ 04:26 pm
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17 October 2016 @ 03:38 pm
My friend wants so see Arranged, a DVD about 2 American women who have just graduated college and are grade school teachers. One is from an Orthodox Jewish family, one from and Arab family, and it turns out both sets of parents are going to start looking at prospective husbands for their daughters. It is pretty good, I was describing it to my friend, she liked the sound of it. ( I also watched Third Person and Jack Reacher, Jack Reacher being just a thriller, though at least it featured Werner Herzog as the villain. He is in real life a filmmaker, director).

I had an odd dream about high school and then college, last night, that I had an end of year exam with my college English professor. But when I got there, I was directed to a computer screen and I decided to switch from Art to Music on the screen. I think then it seemed like it was NOT any longer a final exam but  regular class, but at the same time I kept thinking it was a final exam.  I started crying and got the attention of some woman. But it sort of felt that I was crying to get attention. Also everytime I went to sit at a desk, it would be the wrong desk, it would have someone's jacket and books there. Even though it was supposed to be my class, or my final exam, there was not enough seats for me.

I ended up being driven home by a woman I don't know. I don't know how I got into her car. Also, when I drove past my house, I told her that was my house and she made up some excuse for why she couldn't stop.

Then I woke up.

 I just started thinking about my English professor from my incomplete college career, and a phone call I had with my mother, and one time when I felt sick because I had been staying up late to complete my end of semester projects, papers, whatever. I was shaky and someone else offered to help me, and I felt stupid because I really shouldn't need it, that I was just being lazy. Also that  I didn't care to do my own work. All it was was cutting some cardboard, so it was not really so dishonest, I guess I was just being a perfectionist.
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08 October 2016 @ 05:42 pm
I had a weird feeling early this morning, felt I should read Micah. At first I read saw some condemning things and had the paranoid feeling that God was condemning me. I've had that feeling before and then found out it was false, of course. But today someone at thequestionclub asked if we had stories we thought no one else would believe. I answered that there was one from last year when the Bataclan concert hall in Paris was attacked, and 100 people died.

The Saturday before the shooting, I had been having very paranoid feelings, and was cleaning up or something, and flipped through my old French language textbook, which I had not touched for years. I landed on the following picture of a woman waiting for a bus or taxi, I guess:


This is what jumped out at me. I knew that it meant something other than "traitor comes", figured out that "comes" was the first part of the word "comestibles" and looking in the dictionary that traiteur was French for "trattoria", restaurant.


 I felt the words "seven days" come into my head. Seven days later the Bataclan was assaulted by terrorists.

And last night I felt this creepy feeling, the condemnation in the Bible (which was another part of what happened in the days before, the feeling I was being condemned by God, on that same Saturday previous, I believe). It was early this morning when I thought I should read the book of Micah, which I mostly just skimmed, though it's a short book. I've felt this before, previous to other terrorist acts, though perhaps not so clearly and so detailed. But I wonder if something is going to happen now. I would not even have remembered it if someone at TQC had not asked the question.


note: a week or two ago, I heard "cartographer" in my head, and later in the day I went downstairs and the mail had come--there was a request from Doctors Without Borders, and a world map in it. Just interesting. With everything in the world happening lately, the violence--not to mention the Biblical prediction for Demascus coming true, I guess anything could happen. But something is going to happen. God is in the mix here.
06 October 2016 @ 06:44 pm
I killed a caterpillar on the way here because God told me to.

Completely forgot about it till I came back from making journals, taking a break, talking with Maadmike.

I think it was prophetic about getting rid of incest in my family. Silly, but for me incest is a soundalike word with insects. A caterpillar is a juvenile insect. A small thing that might get larger. No matter how fancy it is, it is...incest.The mind is a powerful thing.
04 October 2016 @ 02:37 pm
30 September 2016 @ 03:18 pm
I am getting rid of some mattresses that someone gave me, KING size box springs and a mattress. Why king sized I don't know. They have been sitting in the front hall forever(a year?), but I have to wrap the mattress in plastic before hauling out to the curb. I didn't want to throw them away because someone gave them to me, my Al-anon sponsor. After 13 years in the program, and about 8 years of her sponsoring, I just backed out. What got me was after after all that time, she said, "Al-anon is about getting what you want". It's not. It's about acceptance, about not letting the alcoholic/s rip your guts out and derail you and distract you. About getting on with your life.

Nowhere in the books does it say it's about getting what you want, nor is it implied. It is in the sense that sometimes it's a good idea. It's just not the main focus.

The whole thing got to be a drudge rather quickly, and a couple years before the end, I had this dream as I woke up. I saw the hallway outside my room and then the stairs up to my sister's room, used to be my room. I heard "dah nah goa, dah nah groa" -- faux Celtic I think, and it didn't take me long to get, If you don't go, you won't grow. If I don't do the steps, I will be at a disadvantage spiritually.

Now I'm thinking I have no idea where the dream came from, I wish I'd just left and known where to go. But I didn't. If I'd known then what I know now....
19 September 2016 @ 01:25 pm
Also, a question about the death of a child.  I did not note that when I was writing in journal about what I did ...Sat.?... online.

I guess I have to go, shopping with Carolyn today.
19 September 2016 @ 01:23 pm
I did not eat at Wendy's Sat. because I could hear Pastor Billy saying how, "you'll spend five, or twenty, bucks" at McDonald's but not give to the Kingdom.

I did eat @ Wendy's,  $2.87, on Sun, I just needed to  GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. I thought I was going to put my paper journal together, I have to glue the pages in at the end of the month, as I go along. I'm just really tired of it, have lost the patience for now. Maybe never do it.

I am going to get Atoma notebooks from now on I think, I do like the option to have one journal for each month, instead of starting one in July and then not wanting to waste paper, so start August with the last 20 pages; like that. It seems pricey. But I feel like that's just the way it is. I need to journal, for whatever reason.
17 September 2016 @ 05:36 pm
Arg. the questions I think of at home to look up at the library, sometimes I just cannot get myself to write them down!

I am just feeling useless. I feel like I shut out someone's feelings, their pain, this week because I could not stand the pain. And I feel guilty because I did it, but also I feel guilty because I might have missed a chance to grow. But I also think she needed to calm down.
16 September 2016 @ 05:58 pm
Just weird, when I type "livejournal" into the browser window, it comes out LIEJOURNAL. Not liking that. 40 bucks, don't know if I can afford such frippery. But I MADE IT. :D That's just a preview from skinit.com. For iphone 7 which ... ... ... expensive.
15 September 2016 @ 02:55 pm
It's weird, I can't find my notes on who is waiting for the Mahdi before starting the Caliphate, Sunni or Shia.

"Differences exist in the concept of the Mahdi between Shia Muslims and adherents of the Sunni tradition. For Sunnis, the Mahdi is the Muslims future leader who is yet to come. For most Shia Muslims, the Mahdi was born but disappeared and will remain hidden from humanity until he reappears to bring justice to the world, a doctrine known as the Occultation. For Twelver Shia, this "hidden Imam" is Muhammad al-Mahdi, the Twelfth Imam."

JD FARAG: "The last time the Feast of the Sacrifice fell on 9/11 was in 2001,( sighting of the  new moon)" 9/11 this year is on 9/11(2001). Islam is a counterfeit, this is a counterfeit of Rosh Hashanah. This feast is a counterfeit of the day Abraham took his son to be sacrificed. Honors A.'s willingness to sacrifice his son, but puts Ishmael in Isaac's place. The Quran does not specify which son, but Muslim tradition says it is Ishmael, the Arab son.

Genesis says God said "take your ONLY son Isaac". Mt Moriah, temple mount is the place of sacrifice.

I am in over my head with this, am I really capable.

I feel GUILTY, not trying hard enough. Right, not.
13 September 2016 @ 05:23 pm
[from yesterday, doi:I got seltzer water and Ezekiel cereal, someone recommended Ezekiel bread to me, though I haven't yet found it at Kroger. But I did see the cereal today. No sugar, just bean sprouts and seeds, no grain. I had it with frozen berries and almond milk. Yum. I am really liking almondmilk. I like the kind that is half almond, half coconut, just for the taste but it's hard to find.]

I woke up after a weird, kind of sick feeling dream, about my older brother and Rosie O'Donnell, a Barbie briefcase of faux tortoiseshell. I was just fascinated by this, then woke up and am now thinking, how weird it was, it ended up with Rosie O'Donnell and some plastic balls that you could embroider and make Xmas ornaments out of them, & she crocheted or knitted them so that you could play a game with them, really complicated and skilled but also as useless as any of the games people get addicted to, was played partly under the table ledge; so I'm guessing that some of this is about something under the table.

I had a dream about that before, someone I know lived on a certain street, & I dreamed I was walking on that street, the property of my highschool on the righthand, and this guy's street on the left, jutting adjacently from the street I was on. I dreamed my brother gave me a glass of brown rice, literally under a table I used to own, passed it to me.

There was a sick feeling to the dream, a tightness or pressure, and just murky, a forced feeling. Some of it was kind of personal, so maybe it has to do with that. I woke up angry at my mother, do not know why.

I had also had a dream previous to that, Stephen Spielberg and his kids and Kate Capshaw were in it, Kate looked surprisingly older, or rather that she had not taken care of herself well. Her cheeks were really sagging making less of her cheekbones. That reminded me of Goldie Hawn rather.

Listening to Pastor JD, just started. Gog, Magog, to attack Israel.
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09 September 2016 @ 05:50 pm
"...As one country, one people, under one God...". Donald Trump (Values Voter Summit?, today).

You can't always get what you want, but if you try some times, you get what you need.

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02 September 2016 @ 05:49 pm
I was trying to figure out what this meant, seeing "4" and Jayne B. A few months ago. 4 means PLACE, a new place like Jayne was going through, someone at her old apartment was bothering her so much she was just beside herself. We all prayed for her and she got a new apartment. Now I am getting one, Carolyn said she was sure and she knows the power of prayer, of God. Getting an apartment that is.

I keep seeing 'bunnies', myself. Prideful, rushing ahead, arrogant. Maybe even snap decision. I have to make a release with my mother, just tell her that I forgive her.

I finally did buy her a dish drainer, she has a folding wooden one from Pier 1--a couple decades old. She never noticed how bad it was getting, but refused to have a wood or wire one, or one affordable by me...till now. Ordered online a few days ago, should arrive by 7th.

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25 August 2016 @ 07:14 pm
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I have been meaning to look up the idea of lemon juice alkalyzing the blood/body? Didn't make sense when I heard it from others, but here is this blog, and I guess this is the reason:

  • "There is often misunderstanding of lemon’s pH outside the body versus inside the body.  Let’s get this straight and expound on 10 benefits of regularly taking lemon juice with warm water (note: NOT equal to lemonade!)
    Outside the body, lemon juice is acidic (pH is below 7).  This is a non-issue. Everyone knows this.  It’s a citrus fruit. Inside the body however, when lemon juice has been fully metabolized and its minerals are dissociated in the bloodstream, its effect is alkalizing and therefore raises the pH of body tissue (pH above 7 is alkaline).  Please notice the difference."

It goes on, but that's it in a nutshell, I guess.

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13 August 2016 @ 05:47 pm
08 August 2016 @ 07:27 pm
I am back from a mission weekend and I loved it. Some things did not go great, but I feel like I see things better in perspective. I loved getting out of the house and someplace different.

I hate that all my old problems are just there getting bad as fast as ever. I guess that's the way it goes. I just have not had time to let the constant application of the solution take effect, I think.

South Dakota is beautiful, we got  to Wounded Knee.
25 July 2016 @ 06:37 pm
This is one of my journal covers to be printed out, with the patch to go at the bottom if I do use it for the September journal. I usually picture it on a light cardstock with a linen texture, but so far that does not happen, just limited resources. Or I'm reluctant to spend the money, and the time to find the cardstock. Maybe some day.


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18 July 2016 @ 03:01 pm
AT first I thought he was being decisive and confident as a leader, when his social media post worked to help get the coup put down, now I'm thinking he sure is heavy-handed. I'm even hearing a suggestion that he may have been the one to promote the coup, so that he could cut down people in the aftermath, do things he couldn't do except in the face of a coup.

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16 July 2016 @ 02:53 pm
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